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.baby o.

i wanted this to be the first post on my brand new blog.

but the anticipation is killing me to share these pictures with you.

i flew to st louis a few weeks ago to cuddle with this babe and spend time with family.

i think the pictures can speak for themselves the beauty and curiosity in this wee baby.

so baby o. i love you and can’t even wait for you to grow….

baby mohawk that wont ever go down 🙂

what a precious cousin baby o has!

looks like baby o might have someone wrapped around her finger…

.white.

.white christmas?

.life.

you know when you have those days where everything seems just blah. frustrating and you are just ready for it to be over. maybe its one of those weeks, months or years. i’m having one of those years. some, most or all of you who come to visit my blog know what has been going on in my life the past 6 months. for those of you who don’t know let me let you get a peak into my life right now. on january 1, i lost a relative. on february 12 i lost a relative. on february 20 my brother was killed in a car accident and on april 18 i lost another relative. to say that i am frustrated. upset. stressed. worn out. hurt. confused and in shock are all understatements. i don’t spill all of this out to get sympathy at all. trust me. normalcy is clutch for me right now.

its crazy. its crazy how i had all of these things planned out for my life prior to february 20th. all of these losses were tough, but the one that hurt the most was my brother. you aren’t suppose to lose your best friend, your brother, at only 24 years young, your biggest fan, your sunshine in a matter of minutes. in those minutes, in that weekend, in these past 4 plus months it is more real to me now that life isn’t fair. that what i had planned and set up to do isn’t how things are going to be. that their is a new “normal” that my family and i are trying to figure out in the midst of all of this. but how lucky that, despite how unloving and unlovable i have been, i am surrounded by family who loves me and hurts with me, friends who are straight up legit, awesome, encouraging and forgiving,  and coworkers who are understanding. but most of all that i have a Jesus who is wrapping his arms around my family tighter then ever through all of this. most of the time we don’t feel it but i know deep deep down that its there. i know that we are going to make it through this heartache because He is so much bigger then these tragedies. i know we are going to make it through because my brother always said.. “us LeGrand’s we stick together”. i know that i’m not going to be in this horrible pain for my whole life because its not suppose to be like this.

life isn’t fair. life sucks sometimes. but i’m learning SLOWLY and i mean very slowly that its life. and despite all of the crap that goes on here, there is one life on the other side that i can’t even wait to start, one where i’ll see my brother doing his stupid dance he always did to make me laugh and one of the greatest most awesome hugs he has ever given me. man its going to be great.

.in need.

“in need of grace. in need of love. in need of mercy raining from high above. in need of strength. in need of peace.”-dave hunt

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new life

i knew moving home would be hard. but i honestly didn’t think i would love it this much. i have an amazing job that i love, i live with great parents who love me so well and are patient with me, and im meeting sweet and fun new friends. god is so good and faithful in how he has put me back in s.c. but i will make a list of a few things that i miss from tn. and here they go and they are in no particular order……
jonah and how he says he “lus me”

the way that they cuddled with me every morning

being loved they way they loved me..

14 girls that stole my heart 4 years ago

ill stop here for right now. 🙂

landyn and lennox


i am so in love with these two girls. i have babysat them for the past year and this past weekend had to say goodbye to them…. thankfully not forever but i wont be babysitting them anymore… they are SO beautiful and such sweet girls, i am going to miss seeing them everyday and watching them grow up. their parents carey and andrika are simply amazing too. they have such a sweet and loving marriage that it makes me so excited about meeting the man i am going to marry and fall in love. the way that they love eachother and their beautiful girls is so amazing, encouraging, and awesome. i just can’t get over it. landyn is a little over 2 1/2 years old and lennox just turned 1 in july. i love you carey, andrika, lennox and landyn. you guys really do mean the world to me… and andrika.. my eyes are still swollen 😦

landyn

lennox

new chapter…

so these past two weeks have been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. i have had to make decisions that i wasn’t ready to make yet and really “grow up” and make “big girl” decisions. in the matter of a week i got a “big girl job” and packed up the rest of my life in knoxville, tn and have moved home to s.c. its definately a bittersweet event but i know that with all my heart this is where i am suppose to be and God has amazing things planned for me. i am so excited about my amazing new job and the exciting things that will come along with it, but am finding it so hard to swallow the fact that i wont be babysitting 3 kids that i absolutely adore, be there for some of my young life girls experience their first week of college in knoxville and most of all be with girls that i have spent the past 5 years living with, growing up with and becoming young ladies with. i know that these friendships will never go away and that they will be girls that will stand next to me on my wedding day but its hard to think that i wont be around the corner from their houses. its been so much fun these past 5 years in knoxville and would not have gone anywhere else to share my college experience. it was a fun run ktown…..


here are some pictures from my last weekend in town… i love you guys!